Me and Ewan

Tundra Untouched by Cancer

Jenny Harrington
4 min readSep 4, 2023

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This was us, stuck on a bus in Denali National Park eight years ago. The steep, winding Polychrome Mountain road had washed out. We waited for five hours inside the old, dusty uniform green bus as sludgy mud was plowed off the one-lane gravel road. We played card games and napped. We took short walks in the cold drizzle. But mostly we sat side-by-side inside the park service vehicle because earlier in the day, a near miss with an enormous carnivore had reminded us that we were in extremely wild terrain. Anything could happen at any moment. On that one day, it had rained, hailed, and snowed. A shaggy, brown grizzly headed towards our path as we hiked. And now we were trapped in a bus because of a landslide.

Toklas Transit pick up at Teklanika River Campground

I love this memory. Marred by mishap and high heartrates but untainted by cancer. It would be eleven months before Ewan would be diagnosed with leukemia. Another twenty months later he’d die. In this memory, I am no less stessed than most days. I am wondering if we have enough water and snacks to last us until the road is repaired. Will we be warm enough if we are trapped on the bus through the night? In the back of my mind, I am worried about our cat back home. The anxiety-provoking list is endless, but the threat of cancer…

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Jenny Harrington

Author, researcher, mother living on an island near Seattle. Now, notably, an international bunny smuggler. Find her struggles and snuggles at www.teamewan.com